
I wish I could say our conversations are productive. Maybe they are... but I feel completely helpless tonight. I want to sleep, but when I lay down to close my eyes, sleep does not come. Instead of sleep there are tears of anger, grief, and overwhelming sadness. I have buried my anger for a very long time. It's been pushed down, capped tightly, and left to ferment. I know better days are ahead, but in this moment it feels like life will never be free from this grief. His actions may have landed us here, but it feels I am the one left to figure out how manage the broken pieces. It's too much for any of us to handle alone. I know Who can help me through this mess, but I don't always know exactly how to find Him...
Tomorrow morning I will get up, take my shower and meet my sister Priscilla for breakfast. I will go to work later than usual and work until the daycare closes. I will be grateful for my job in the kitchen and the little ones who look for me each day. And little by little, with God's help and His hand to hold, I will climb this mountain. He hasn't left me. Even when I feel alone He is here. He hasn't left either one of us. For this I am thankful.
...I hope that you will be able to put all the pieces of the puzzel of life back together,
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DeleteThat made me so sad. Sometimes Life just sucks. Hope each day is better for you.
ReplyDeleteYes, sometimes life is hard and sad. I have more good days than bad. I am thankful for this also. Today was good.
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I love you my friend Martha. Always praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI love you too, Heather. I thought of you the other day and how I sent you a text message one time just because you were on my heart.
DeleteThis post made me teary. I am so sorry you're going through this, and I wish I could take all of your pain away. I love you, Marty.♥
ReplyDeleteI love you too, Rachie Baby.
Delete😢 I’m sorry you are going through this.
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