Wednesday, August 06, 2014

Lookin' Up

My voice You shall hear in the morning, O LORD;
In the morning I will direct it to You,
And I will look up.
Psalm 5:3

Every once in a great while I stop to think about my blog title. After several years of struggle, life has once again settled into something more peaceful and relaxed. I'm enjoying my grandchildren, soaking in the summer, and relishing time to enjoy life. It's time to catch my breath and reflect on what God has attempted to teach me the past several years, and how He uses the circumstances of life to mold me into His image. There have been times during the past four years that I was fairly certain I wouldn't make it through the trial with any sense of dignity intact. Perhaps that is part of God's plan to either keep or make me humble.

My dad used to joke and say, "It's hard to be humble when you're as good lookin' as me." And then he would laugh. His battle with cancer five years ago, his steady faith, and unending love have been a stronghold for me on days when I wanted to run away and hide from the task the Lord had called me to. I desperately miss both my parents, especially when it comes time to gather our family together. In my heart they will always be missing and yet strangely present at the same time. Sometimes I find myself thinking of them and looking up.


  1. I can tell you're more relaxed and enjoying life in the moment. You did really did. Not every day was pretty, but you're human. :) I admire you, I really do. Looking back is always amazing when you see what God helped you do. Looking up is even better!

    1. Once in a while I almost feel guilty for feeling relaxed, and then I remember that my mom wouldn't want me to live that way. I wasn't a perfect caretaker and she wasn't a perfect mom, but with God's help we did what we could. I'm still learning to keep my focus in the right direction.
      Thank you for being a friend and an encouragement.