Today turned out much better than yesterday. I'm still tired, but not as wiped out as yesterday. My knee, which started acting up after I came home yesterday afternoon, was able to carry me around and help me get tasks completed without too much resistance. A knee brace proved helpful.
I found my heart a little sad today as I watched two CNA's care for one of our residents. They chatted amongst themselves while our patient looked back and forth from one to the other. She'd tearily (That's my own word) asked to go to bed after lunch and they were obliging her wish, but also forgetting that she needed to be recognized and acknowledged in the process. I'm sure they didn't mean to overlook her. I don't think they even noticed. After they left the room I went back in to toss my gloves in the trash, but mostly give my friend a hug, tell her not to cry, that I love her (You fall in love quick..), and kiss her on the head. :(
When I had a few minutes I held the hand of another resident who was aching for a few minutes of undivided attention. When I hugged her she asked if she could go home with me. "My family doesn't want me anymore," she said, "because I poop my pants." She didn't smell bad and she continued to hold tightly to my hand. I reassured her the best I could, told her that she had friends here and that we love her. I thought again about my mom who always hugged her nursing home friends when she and Dad made their weekly visits. I remembered how she told me there are some who never get a hug or a kiss on the cheek anymore. I know I can't meet the need of everyone every day, but I can do a little bit as I walk through, as I answer call bells, and as I do cares. I hope I never get so distracted by my coworkers that I forget why I am there in the first place. I know it would be all to easy to do.
Aw. Dealing with your mom has made you much more sensitive, I think, and that is a good thing and perfect for this job. Even as you saw your parents care for those in a nursing home...it's all coming together in a plan isn't it? You're right where you're supposed to be!
ReplyDeleteGod has an interesting way of getting things done in our lives. I wasn't at all sure about what He was doing a few years ago, or even last year. There are some days when I can't even believe where He's taking me.
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Look on my sidebar and visit the blog of my friend Lydia. She is only 20 years old and she blesses my socks off.
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ReplyDeleteIt perfectly tells us what a good person you are, Martha....I am not sure I would have your patience....
I am proud to be your friend...
Cheers!
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It's been a long journey, Linda, and painful. I've failed often and am much aware of my capability to fail again, but I'm trying to fail less often. (Does that make any sense?)
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DeleteThis post made me cry.
ReplyDeleteCome a little closer and I'll give you a hug and a kiss too.
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Me too, Bethany.
DeleteMartha you are truly a hero, and I know that you are just what God needs you. Not many people can do what you do, and have your servant and loving attitude.
ReplyDeleteI didn't think I could love you more... I do!! Hugs and more Hugs.
I don't feel hero-ish and I may never get all my tasks signed off, but I am having fun and surprising myself. Isn't God good?
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I agree with Betsy, I think God did a work in you when you had Mom. He has given you a soft and tender heart for those in need. I am so happy that you are there to love these people and give them an encouraging word.
ReplyDeleteYes, Rachel, I guess He really did. All the while I thought I was making a mess of it, and He was making something I couldn't see.
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Isn't that usually how it works? :)
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